Loads and Loads of Unspoken Stuffs

S.T.U.D.Y.

2010-04-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

Exams are in a matter of hours.. But I'm not worried, nor scared.. In fact, I know that everything will turn out fine cos I've a God who's helping me with my study plan.. I can feel the peace within. I can see the amount of work I manage to accomplish.. I know that God's with me. Can you feel Him too??

Hold on.

2010-04-04T08:53:00.000-07:00

I am holding on.

Even when we're miles apart, and when we can't get in touch, I know that we're looking at the same patch of clouds in the sky. In fact, you're as close to me as a prayer is.

This is my trust in you. That you'll be happy and free.

pwoud of Adwain

2010-03-24T12:18:00.000-07:00

Adrian is proud of himself for accomplishing 2 feats. 2 never been done before incredible feats that can only be revealed at e end of the week. But. Adrian is now tired. And Adrian just wants to wish the people he love a warm good night and a sweet sweet dream. Adrian doesn't care if you are not resting your brains if you dream. Adrian just wants to wish you that. And Adrian wants you to have good health too.

ham-burger?

2010-03-22T08:12:00.000-07:00

There's a hamster in the house...idkwts

tika taka

2010-03-15T07:32:00.001-07:00

Much as I want to, I can only do this much. Words are all I can say, time is all I can give. If God wills it, it will be. If not, what else can I say. But to continue with my own path, slowly threading and pacing towards Him.

Trust in the Lord, and He WILL provide.

Come to think of it, our paths WILL converge. We all. ALL our paths. So smile:)

fillings

2010-03-11T18:59:00.000-08:00

I put your grieve with me,
I share your pains with you.
I rejoice with you who rejoice,
I dance with you who dance.
To you my dear friend, my brothers and sisters,
I share with you this gift.
A God-given gift that I can freely share.
To feel what you feel,
to deal with what you deal.
This is what I want to do
to the best of my abilities.

God weeps with us so that we may one day laugh with Him.

-Jürgen Moltmann

waltz with me?

2010-03-08T19:36:00.000-08:00

Sooo looking forward to e choir songs man.. I wanna do musicals!!! That's realli realli so interesting n fun!!

~Do I hear a wallllltzzzzzz~ :D

tell meeee

2010-03-03T20:50:00.001-08:00

Tell me that you have the time for this. Tell me that everything's gonna be better. Tell me there's a time for this to happen. Tell me that this is not just me.

A fool shows his annoyance at once,but a prudent man overlooks an insult. -Prov 12:16

lalalalala

2010-02-23T05:02:00.000-08:00

And I've got to say this..

No matter who you are with, what you are doing today, whether the roads be clear, whether the ice be smooth, you must know that there's somebody under the same blue sky thinking of you.

Smile Princess:)

lei

2010-02-23T04:53:00.000-08:00

I AM TIRED. Full stop.

tis-courage

2010-02-05T07:38:00.000-08:00

I am discouraged. If only the right people could read all these.

I have lost 2 sources of encouragement and motivation. 1 is a friend close to me, whom I still care for even till this day. The other is a sister, whom just like a coal brought out of the fireplace, grew cold and faded away. I have failed.

I am uncertain if a responsibility will be taken away from me, as it may seem as if I was negligent. I do want to do it, but I cannot, due to circumstances that compound me. I pray that God does not take it away from me.

I am alone in this empty house of my heart, with doors that lead to a family which has a major, yet invisible wall. And yet I am unable to do anything about this wall as it can only be destroyed by its creator, which isn't me.

I am unable to go to the place where I find comfort and encouragement for 3 weeks. Painfully creeping pass this 2nd week is bad enough. Missing out sure sucks big time.

I am discouraged, but I still have faith.

God, take it away.

I am deserted but there's one who never deserts who's always with me. He sends a message telling me to be faithful in the things that I do, and wait patiently. Time is of the essence, and definitely it is worth the wait. Trainings are always like that where the last leg of the season comes with a hard push, and a hard yank. Through it all, then am I able to thank God for this wait. Let me let you know that I WILL wait for you to come back. I am faithfully waiting.

The lives of many are in my hands to improve and make better. With love, I will continue what I have started, for it is also through these little things that their faith is built up, and also that God teaches them. I thank God for Sam and Rainer, children of God who sent timely smses to perk me up. I cannot fail in this. I shall not. My determination to walk with the Spirit will definitely overpower my tired body. I will not care about the circumstances that bind me anymore, for it is actually me who willingly bind myself with these ropes. I will not fail. Never.

It is time. Time I learnt how to handle this. If I cannot handle this, how can I in future hold up a family of my own, especially when it will be even harder to handle, with more people involved? To be the fatherly, the brotherly, and also the filial son. I've got to step out of this rubbish heap. Problems can come my way, but I will not force my way through it. Its only dummies who blindly bash their way through solid walls. God will help me figure out a way around this. I can multitask.

I am going to STOP MOPING AROUND. Learn to accept what's already done. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Life's moving on, SO CAN I. Now, GET UP.

stumbling block

2010-01-26T07:04:00.000-08:00

We never learn until we go through it. Never walk until we fall. Until we become a stumbling block. This applies to you, this applies to me. That's why I'm trying my best to not be one.

2010-01-17T06:57:00.000-08:00

"And do everything with love." -1 Corinthians 16:14

Readings

2010-01-12T06:20:00.000-08:00

"But it now seemed clear that the periods of sharpest suffering had been the very occassions of spiritual growth. Trials had purged sin and developed character; poverty had taught him dependence on God and cleansed him of greed; failure and public disgrace had helped him cure worldly ambition. A clear pattern emerged: pain could be transformed, even redeemed." -John Donne

"Faith like Job's cannot be shaken because it is the result of being shaken." -Rabbi Abraham Heschel

"A world free of mistakes would actually abort God's purpose for us." -John Hick

~silent always here~

2010-01-09T23:01:00.000-08:00

I just realised that there's some people that I can just "rubbish" with, and some people, whom I'm totally out of words with. Hope you do understand that its not that I've got nothing to say to you, but that I'm just bad with words. I dun realli have alot of convos with alot of people, yet when I do, its usually 70% full of "rubbish", unless its realli of something important, like work. I have alot of things to say, truthfully, but they just dun seem to spill out like many normal peeps. I guess my love language is just not in words. Haha. Go find out my love language ok? Den you'll know that I truely do care:)

I truly do wish for a heart to heart talk. But I do know that this is not the right time. Haha. So let me talk to my blog den :)

Fish

2009-12-31T10:07:00.000-08:00

This marks the end of year 2009. Yup. Gone are the days of heartaches and pain. Gone are the days of trying to find my identity. Gone are the days of old. Gone are the days of me waiting to be served. Gone are the days of taking and not giving.

May these days remain where they are placed in history and never coming back again. 2010 is not a year for defeat and crutches, but for a man who will complete his training, a man who is now able to look after his family, a man who's staunch in his already corrected beliefs.

Taxi driver asked me what's my ambition when I grow up. I cant believe I didn't answer his question as what I want to. I'm still dreaming. I'm still letting God mould my dreams.

Lynn asked me what's my new year resolution. I didnt know what to say.

2010 is not going to drift away from me. I am doing something about it.

faints

2009-12-30T09:08:00.000-08:00

Gents of my generation, if you are planning on moving into an apartment with your wife when u both get married, you better start working hard now.. What I mean is, to start bidding for your build-to-order flats now!! It takes 7years for the government to even start building!! So means, it doesn't matter if you have a girlfriend now or not, but if you plan on it, GO START BIDDING!!! :)

Lord of all

2009-12-17T08:35:00.000-08:00

Only God can do these.

1) My obstacle.
When you go play badminton, and when all of e sudden, I, who dun like to go jogging, was triggered by The Voice to go jog at the stadium halfway thru e game. It was at the stadium when I was conversing with God, when He told me this. "Sit down and you see your obstacle. Stand up, and see past your obstacle. It is a beautiful sight. Remember this. You will need this."

2) Pray, and it will be done.
Prayed: For growth in leadership during camp.
Got: Responsibilities in piping, usher, security, and a whole lot of other odd jobs.
Prayed: For Pris's headache
Got: Gone like it never was there! Thanx to Winnie's good massage too:)
Prayed: For bondage breaking within the family
Got: A discussion on horoscopes immediately after reaching home.

This is why I believe. And I only believe in things that are 100% certain.

awesome!!

2009-11-15T06:50:00.000-08:00

God is interestingly GR8! Just went for cousins' granddad's baptism n I found out that Mr Tan Soon Yong from BBSS is actually a pastor in that church!! AWESOME!!

Boats

2009-11-08T08:06:00.000-08:00

If life was on a boat sailing out to the open seas, I would have sunk by now. Holes found on all sides of the boat, with only a bucket to bail the water out.

And God is faithful. He has made barnacles grow under the boat to cover the holes. Although at times water sill seep in, I now can continue on to complete the whole journey drier and safer.

Pow wer!

2009-10-29T08:23:00.001-07:00

Cars are powered by petrol, turbines are powered by electricity. Some humans are run on espresso, others are run on chocolates.

Timely dashes and timely rests. Life's pretty much made up by this rite?? Mine's also including waiting:)

ncourag

2009-10-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

I know I may not walk you through the whole journey through.
I know I may not be there when you need me most.
I know I may not be the best person there can be.
I know I may not respond when you call.

But all I want you to know is that..
I will weather the storm with you.
I will lend my listening ear whenever I can.
I will aim to be the best I can be.
I will stand by my phone as much as possible.

I will try my best.
My friend, I will try my best. :)

My God

2009-09-20T01:56:00.000-07:00

My God is like the wind..
No.. He's more than the wind..

The wind can bring you a breeze or a storm,
can lift you up into the atmosphere.
The wind can lift a kite into the sky.
It gives birds a chance to fly.
It lets sailors reach home faster,
It brings the clouds into motion.

But My God can do much more!
My God lifts you up higher!
He calms the storms when you need it.
He calls forth warmth when you least expect it.
He gives people hope and anticipation,
He gives you shelter, freedom and laughter.

My God is this cool,
He's definitely way better than the wind.

15.5

2009-09-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

Brain has officially been working 15 n a half hours today lo!! Since 8.30am till 12 am. Great?? Yup!! did 2 tuts n one design assignment.. Gonna take photo of it tml before handing up.. Haha.. Now duper tired out..

Juz wanted to say that completing some assignment is realli like giving birth to new hopes.. That it'll be the best in class.. That people will commend you for it.. Makes you feel proud of the amount of work you put in..

Points to another fact that also its like how our dads n mums show us off to their friends n relatives when we perform on stage for the first time.. When we do our first art piece.. When we first learn to stand n walk..Not that they're being showoffs, but that they're so happy about this that they'll share it with people who'll celebrate with them..

People may say that i'm only living on the lush green side of the world, n not on their side, where everything they do they fail, or when they try hard to appease their parents' high standards.. But rmb that as long as you do ur best, it'll be like shining gold thats worth every minute under the fire:)

:( . . . . . :)

2009-09-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

Sad.. I guess its time i return the small box to you, my friend.. Guess its just not this time.. MT's gonna be put off till a new timeslot for mi.. Oh well.. Expect more to come I guess.. Haha.. What else can I say??

I still want to sing n perform for Him who's worth it:)

Why do I still feel like giving U a warm warm hug?? Oh man..

“And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye when you have a log in your own?

2009-09-03T06:08:00.000-07:00

Reminded twice about this verse today..

Once when I jux kindly gave a gentle reminder to my jie to inform mei when she wore her slippers to sch today. It was REALLI REALLI GENTLE.. Like my normal conversing tone.. What's her tone? *Backlash* *Rain of terror* *Flames spewing from a dragon's mouth*... Which left me with a puzzled face.. Only God knows what's going on in her head.. She's getting too defensive these days.. Dont know why.. God I juz wish that she stops this habit of being suddenly so defensive.. I dont even know how to talk to her anymore..

Twice was when my mei was on e phone wid my mum.. She juz conveniently said that e both of us would want to walk to a coffeeshop 7 min walk away to have dinner wid mum.. Fact is, she didnt even ask mi if i wanted to anot??!! How can I not be angry?? N when I told her that I didnt wanna go out anymore, guess wat?? She even told my mum (LOUDLY): "U see ur son.. He's so spoilt to even go out.." I EXPLODED with anger!! Shouted back at her.. Nearly wanted to say the F word.. Was so tempted to bang the door.. These voices that I was hearing.. "Bang the door! Scold her with ur arsenal of words!! Quarrel!! Confront!! Fight for what's right!!..." then I heard this still small voice.. "Come to Me.. Control yourself.. You're e only Christian here.."

N just when I was typing this, I was actually intending on not talking to her until she apologises, when God spoke with Ephesians 4:16. ""In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,"

I realli hope that all this is cos i'm being put on the anvil of God.. Sometimes, I realli feel tired.. Tired for thinking bout others' walk in God.. Bout whether I should do things.. To search for other answers when there's only one.. To have hope when things dont seem to happen.. I'm tired.. There's so many things that I want to tell you face to face.. I juz dun seem to get e opportunity.. But still, I know I cannot quit.. I know that others depend on me.. I know that I promised u that I'll be there for you.. I know that even though you've lost my contact, when u need my help i will still be there.. I know that i'm in training.. I know that my God is wid me.. I'm leaving the world behind me tonight.. If its God's will, u will read this.. If its not, what can I say...

burnout

2009-08-22T20:39:00.000-07:00

How can I show my heart.. For someone, so close, yet so far.. For you who works urself like mad.. For you who's health is weak.. I feel the pain when I come to know.. I feel the desire to reach out to help you.. How can I show the truth, yet at the same time dun want to do anything wrong.. Why do I feel that I'm a High C instead of an I.. Being so cautious in every word n action.. I want to say that i'll be there for u.. To listen, to talk.. To encourage, n be encouraged.. i NEED someone to tell mi something something that i need to hear.. I'm not ready to burn out.. I DUN WAN to burn out in front of you..

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BWAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-08-12T21:10:00.001-07:00

Tada.. Got New Phone lo!! Haha.. After such a long time thinking.. I Got this!!

Samsung Jet

N they say its smarter than a smart phone:)

Anyway, its cos my old phone can no longer hear anything le.. Old phone gone dumb due to ageing.. Lol..

Some functions are kinda interesting in this new phone too tho:) but ultimately, I discovered a flaw only 2 days into using it.. there're 3 forms of mp3 players in it, n only i is the motion sensing thing.. Hai.. N my batt only lasts one n a half day.. So sad rite?? Think this phone realli drink electricity like a camel, except that it loses its water like mad. Haha.. Nyway, going for some intro lec soon.. Engineering Innovation & Design.. gonna take 2 sems to do it man.. Hai.. Jia You ba:)

T.I.M.E

2009-08-06T08:58:00.000-07:00

Man.. Everyone's falling.. S.I.C.K.. To those whom I do care about, do rmb to drink more water n eat ur fruits!! N to those whom I do not care about, U oso BETTER drink more water n eat more fruits before I BITE U.. Been too many ppl falling sick.. Even I myself still haf an unstable stomach.. But I'm SLOWLY startin to exercise every morn:) Hopefully it'll get well soon.. COME ON!! LETS ALL GET WELL SOON!!

Time do pass like *Zoom*.. Exams end.. *Zoom*.. RC.. *Zoom*.. Work.. *Zoom*.. Rest.. *Zoom*.. Play.. *Zoom*.. Sch starts..
Juz hoping that things like be like..
Sch starts.. *Zoom*.. Convo.. *Zoom*.. Start work.. *Zoom*.. Get married.. *Zoom*.. 3 kids.. *Zoom*.. Kids' Sch starts.. *Zoom*.. Kids' Convo.. *Zoom*.. Kids Start work.. *Zoom*.. Kids Get married.. *Zoom*.. 3 Grankids.. *Zoom*.. Lunch wid Jesus..
Including all e ad-hoc yada-yadas not mentioned, but we all know one la..

Lets juz work hard towards this k? Haha.. Simple?? U decide:)

Sidenote: If I ever did anything to give any wrong impressions of me or anyone else, I sincerely apologise. If there's a choice I gotta make, I've gotta make it carefully.. I'm taking a step at a time till the appointed time..

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Update!

2009-07-31T18:28:00.000-07:00

Finally ended work.. But was with an mc n stomach flu.. Great rite? Haha.. Anyway, juz a quick update only, n will be doing my first teaching later at 1130.. So lets go play hard!!! Ciaossu~ startin to watch Reborn.. Super cute.. Haha..

A short notice

2009-07-26T18:03:00.000-07:00

I've had it wid this thing.. I'm tired of trying.. I dun wan our convos to be of only "Hi"s n "Bye"s, or only of a few sentences.. All I just want is only a quality friendship.. Right from the start I only wanted to get to know u better, but now like this, I really cant walk this path further. With every one step i take, i'm kicked back ten steps.. Would you only be concerned when something drastic happens to mi? Or would u not even notice my disappearance.. I'm out of touch wid u.. As hard as i might haf tried, I'm juz too tired..

EDIT

I take back my words. I'm going all ahead in this. With God we Overcome. I'm walking towards you. Just YOU WAIT!! I'm claiming you back my friend.

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Wow

2009-07-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

Haha.. Can you imagine a post being uploaded in office?? Its kinda like a one stop login, cut n paste, log off.. Lol.. I seriously cannot imagine it, but yup I’m doin it! In 3 days, its gonna be the start of my last week in office lo.. Gonna end this season of work and step into yet another season of studies.. Hmm.. Not really looking forward to it, but well, when I’m placed here by God, whereelse can I go to??

Been having strangers hear me pray these few days.. First was when jack n I were at e bus stop praying for Hsien Tze. Jason from dunno which cell juz popped by.. Haha.. N e second time was during yday’s wedding dinner, when I was praying for Keith on e phone. I was in e toilet then, which had no one inside. When I stepped out of e toilet after praying, I saw a man standing outside the toilet waiting to go in.. Haha.. Think he must have seen mi.. But also haf to thank him for being understandingJ

Feel that these past few days have been great. In a sense that I can surely say that I’ve been hearing from God quite strongly. I could ‘sense’ that my fren was sick when she didn’t even tell mi, n I haven seen her for quite some time already. I could also give some advice in some stuffs, n got some prayers answered. Thank God for this.

N once again, yet the same issue comes back into my mind. Love beckons man!! After e wedding dinner, lol, I so feel like getting married!!! Haha.. Crazy thoughts rite?!! But well, lets take a step at a time ba.. God does provide, I know for sureJ
Who compares to You, who sets the stars in their place.. You are magnificent eternally, wonderful, glorious. Jesus, no one ever will compare to You Jesus~~

I love you

2009-07-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

This is a song of a love so great, a love so strong.
One none could comprehend, and none could understand.

Your whispered breath drew life into me,
into a mould made only for one.
You saw me as Your finest, and saw me as a champion.
Oh, how could I ask for more.

More, yes indeed u gave, taking my cross from my hands.
Lifting me up in Your death,
Purging me of my pain, my sorrow,
Giving me the courage to stand strong.

I'll seek your face, I'll bow to you.
With my hands lifted up high in worship n surrender.

Your love so great, your love so strong.
N forevermore will I be yours.

uniq.u.e

2009-07-11T09:49:00.000-07:00

Today, I got a proper understanding of how unique we all are.. I got to know of different ppl's reactions and effects of tiredness, the clash of different methods n styles of comments and replies, the abilities of different people to smoothen the tense atmosphere... All in socio aspects.. Juz this already made mi learn a great lot today.. N i also learnt that the way i think is uniquely myself.. Full from all these revelations, but wonders how do i put this into practical use.. as in, how do i not easily get others irritated wid my mouth, how do i not step on ppl's toes doing something which i didnt think was wrong, n how do i filter the truths from the half truths.. This is all too much to handle, but i understand that with God I can Overcome..

Juz in case, please do NOT EVER EVER use this phrase to mi in future.. "Whats UR problem??" I know that many do not know, but I honestly detest/abhor/HATE this phrase.. Family reason.. Please understand.. Thanx lots.. :)

cranial flood

2009-07-05T08:12:00.000-07:00

*slaps head* God gave me a beautiful mind to think in many different perspectives, to be able to have a well rounded picture of things. And God also decided to make this mind complexed so much so that it'll think its going around in circles and end up back in the same position..

basdjsfajflhslgajkgnlabnp

2009-06-29T05:47:00.000-07:00

Its been long since I've been here already.. Cant count e days man.. Haha.. juz been busy wid alot of stuffss.. Haha.. well, aint gonna say much, but juz that i've been out of spore, started working, been helping out in areas that i should, am eating my veggies everyday, n am drinking green tea every weekday at work.. Haha.. but well, I'm still well n kicking:) need more rest i guess.. Haha.. Well, nothing much to look forward to after these days, but I juz learnt something new.. Never thought of things this way before.. That there's no such thing as free labour.. Or SaiKang.. Rmb that always bros n siss.. Haha.. that word looks real weird.. Hahaa.. Enjoy!!

flabbergasted

2009-06-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

-->"Don’t christians like you alway tear down other religions subtly? Don’t you christians always CHALLENGE other people’s faiths too?"

Na.. We dont tear down or challenge people.. Why would we want to?? I believe that we have so much passion for that person to know God, so much so that we tend to get abit 'overheated' at times, but the real meaning's still the same.. We love God, we love you, so we want you to know Him too.. If you don't, we'll still love you:)

-->"So now when I challenge your faith, you get offended! "

Na.. She's not offended.. She's juz disappointed..

-->"LOL..are you subtly cursing me to hell like what your prophets do in your little bible? Was that a threat that your god would send me to hell?"

Woa.. Wait a minute.. We're EVEN COMMANDED NOT TO CURSE!! Why would someone purposely go do wrong against the One she loves?? I do agree that the BIBLE's little tho.. It comes in all shapes n sizes!! Look at my Life App!!!

-->" am sorry but you god and your book applies to you only, my friend. :)"

Well, I do know that Jesus said "Give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar, give to God what belongs to God."

home run.. duper long..

2009-06-06T20:28:00.000-07:00

This conference has been a great exposure to many things..

1) The busyness of the people working behind the scenes during this whole week.. Kudos to them.. Its also that I realise one thing.. When you work in church, you work with friends, and not colleagues or bosses.. That is one thing that no other companies or firms can ever learn of.. Even if you do make mistakes or forget to do things, or believe that you can do a one-man show, when you cannot even do, people still forgive you. People will still be willing to help you, People will still be there to encourage you.. Thanx Fervour, thanx Clare, thanx Melissa, thanx Gideon, N Muen too!!! :)

2) The band.. When I was there to pick them up from e airport, I was sooooo excited.. It was like seeing my dreams come to life!!! Seeing people almost e same age as mi doing things that I wanna do!! I wanna be in a worship band!! Its sooooo cool!!! Not cos of its appearance, but rather cos I see these people as fervent people praising God and worshipping Him by leading the congregation in it. I see Planetshakers.. I wanna be like them.. I see Hillsongs.. I wanna be like them.. I see SHIRELive.. I wanna be like them.. I see Z3.. I CAN be like them.. Was thinking why Z3 didnt have any auditions or sorts for vocalists.. Not sure why still, but I wanna go!!! Can improve myself along e way too..

3) Nobody's perfect.. We do make mistakes.. Silly ones at times too..

4) You know it when the devil's trying to stop you in your tracks.. Cos if God wants you to be at the airport to see the band off at 7am, nothing can/should stop you.. Even if you juz woke up at 7am, even if the lifts stop moving at e 8th floor when u're living on e 9th, even if your cashcard is almost empty n ur bank acc too, or risk getting a speeding ticket when e road limit is 90 but u're travelling at like 100 kmph (I MIGHT have gone pass a speed cam... Might..)

5)Always charge your phone, esp when u're so tired n suddenly needed to do something.. Cos the devil is sly n cunning.. Your mouth may juz become a gatling gun.. All of the sudden... Like *BAM*..

6)Sermon feedbacks..

a)Devotion

I realised the need for keeping the heart of worship.. Worship is not only during service, in church, serving God, PNW sessions, but in our daily lives, living as God's children, treating people with a smile wherever we go, being gracious to your neighbours even if they pour oil on your doorsteps, etc etc.. As time passes, we tend to "snack" our devotion away.. The devil will never be full, even though he's constantly snacking away on our devotion.. N HE IS NEVER FULL.. So to keep us from falling off the cliff, we should constantly feed ourselves properly.. A malnourished child is never a healthy child.. If we wanna remain healthy in God, let Him into our days with His word n songs of His greatness..

b)Understanding today's music

I find it hard.. Like what Wei Jian says, it'll be v v hard for me.. Firstly, I do not listen to secular english songs, n even if I do, I'll listen to those that are meaningful n positive ones. I dun listen to those crazy thrash songs cos I dun even like em in the first place.. But its chinese songs that hold me back cos i'm still in music lessons.. Actually I felt that I needed these music lessons cos I wanted to learn the basics, n that Believer Music was too ex to learn all these.. Its considered a cheaper alternative ba.. But I do agree with what Pastor Chris talked about bout the different song classifications.. I've heard before Christian "death metal" songs.. Its realli... Stunning.. Well, its all up to the person who creates the song i believe..

c)What can happen when you touch God

Alot of times, we pray n expect God to help us, but we do not actively help ourselves out. Its being laidback.. Like when I'm looking for a job now, I'll pray for things to happen on a silver platter.. I can imagine God saying, "No no.. It doesn't work this way." God wants us to be expectant of Him, but God also wants us to help ourselves.. Its like going to a buffet.. You are hungry and you ask God for food.. God gives you a buffet, laid out in front of you.. You do not just sit there n open your mouth waiting for some food to float into your mouth right?? But rather you walk to the buffet table with your plate to get the food yourself.. GOD WANTS THIS!! He wants you to go and reach out to the buffet table!! To take action n not wait for action.. For before you know it, the buffet table could have been wiped clean while you were still sitting there at your own table!!! Get off your butt n TAKE ACTION!! Then you'll be able to see what God has really given, and that it is good..

d)The Beginning

The beginning of a new season.. Our lives come in different seasons.. When one ends, the other starts.. RC could have just ended, but the real RC has only just started.. In our education system, there's theory and practical.. RC is the teachings of theory.. What can we find when we do this.. What should we do to evade that problem.. Its now the start of our practical assessment.. Putting into use what we've learnt.. At the same time, we've also got to go back to the beginning of our walk with God, at the first instance we felt God's presence in our lives, thanking Him for receiving us into His hands.. Some of us have been in church a long time already.. I consider myself still young.. still less than 2 years too.. But we all do occasionally lose the feeling that we've first had when we said the sinners' prayer.. We've got to go back. Find the lost feeling.. For with this lost feeling, than will we be more able to thank God for His works n His love.. We've got to get back to the basics.. God's love is for all.. You have received it, I have received it.. Now pass it on..

7)Workshop Feedback

a)Keeping your vision

We all do want to protect whats dear to us.. Everyone has something or someone that we want to care for.. Our family, friends, even our Winnie the Pooh soft toy at home.. Its the same case as this.. Our vision, if left uncared, untouched, will gather dust and worst still be destroyed if not taken care of properly.. My vision is to be a righteous son of God, who's an encourager, a fellow helper/servant of Christ, a person who'll give glory to God with my voice, who'll lead others to grow strong in Christ.. I want to live for God.. (N don't everyone want this??) Not just in Spirit, but also in actions..

b)Worship

Worship's as just mentioned, is in our daily actions, being wise in the things n words we say, helping lift others up instead of putting others down, etc etc.. This is worshipping God in wholeness. During praise n worship, you realli can praise God in anyway you can.. Its great.. Pure greatness.. Without holding back..

c) Purity - Ps Greg

Its the usual things we hear about whenever we talk on these topic.. Running away, not letting a chance to the devil.. Avoiding n being accountable to others.. Its true n I do agree with Ps Greg on this.. I can only say that these are the basic things that can hold us back from doing stupid things.. Good reminder too..

L.O.S.T

2009-06-03T21:08:00.000-07:00

Its been something that i couldn't take hold off for 4 months already.. Its hurting not cos of the exact event that triggered all these, but rather, its everything that happened right after that that hit me the most.. N the best thing is that there isn't much things to say between us right now.. Why, why, why?? Is it so hard to remedy a wrong?? Man can excel in some ways, yet lose out in others.. I guess this is where i lose.. Totally lost now to the fear..

I

2009-05-26T09:05:00.001-07:00

When I look you in the eyes,
Why do you stay where you are?
Why do you drown in the things you disgust,
With the ups and downs on the path you walk.

Do you not feel my presence,
Do you not feel my hands?
Like the wind blow the sand in the desert,
I will cast away your problems.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me;
That I'm there for all those times,
And I'm now right here by your side.
Is this only for the bad times?
Or is this gonna be the last time?

Don't move back into the shadows.
Don't go back to where you once were.
You've got to know that
when there's a high, it always comes with a low.

Now I stand here and look you in the eyes,
What else have I not done.
What more do you want from me.
I've given you my life.
What more do you want from me.
Ask, and I will give.

blah blah blah

2009-05-26T06:49:00.001-07:00

Its great to know about things.. Its sad when you don't.. Don't you all think so?? Who says ignorance is a bliss???

I'm STILL contemplating on changing to wordpress.. But still, i guess i'm kinda lazy.. Haha..

I'm STILL looking for a job too.. Hopefully I'll be able to take up vincent's job.. Hmm.. I'm realli hoping....

Today

2009-05-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

Today was a fun filled, yet tiring day.. E food, e people, e environment, e few surprises.. Walking around made me worry that others will see us as some gang.. Haha.. I think we can call ourselves the Jesus Gang!! So cool.. Its a pity that many ppl couldn't join us thou.. Randy, Guo Yi, Hong Yu, Desmond, Ling Ru, Henry, Felicia.. Guess its some other time den.. Hmm..

Alot of things going on in my mind too.. I'm glad Daniel was sensitive enough to notice:)

Yes we did have our occasional squabbles, but i would say that without proper planning, things are bound to have some problems.. I thank God that no one brought anything back in their hearts that end up breaking relationships and friendships.. These things when broken, are almost impossible to bring back to normal..

I'll be losing something important in my life soon.. Hard to bear, but its something I gotta do.. :) Let the whole world sleep in peace tonight..

When i'm not in e party of 4 on e square table

2009-05-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

Cut pears for e 4 of them, went down from 9th floor to 5th floor to carry 2 bottles of water up, chatted wid other family members, had dinner - 4 bowls of noodles n veg, did srvc fdbk, smsed ppl, blogged..

Man, I can do alot of things with e time!!! Haha.. Now, what should I prep for tml?? Hmm...

Happy man:)

2009-05-15T09:50:00.000-07:00

Adrian is a happy man..
Adrian has once again met up with all his fav ppl from sec sch n ocbc..
Adrian is thankful that everyone is remembered..
Adrian is thankful that he's listening to Christian music with his family settling in his room..
Adrian feels encouraged when he takes a bold step..
Adrian wants nothing else but a better relationship with God n His children..
Adrian has learnt not to use e word saikang in all that he does, for all he does is for the glory of the one leading him..
Adrian sometimes looks at something n thinks that it is telling him something..
Adrian wants to help..:)
Adrian wants to exercise..
Adrian wants to not spend redundantly..
Adrian is a happy man:)

Sumthings

2009-05-11T07:30:00.001-07:00

Some things that happened yday n tday..

1) I banged into one of e pillars in church.. Now there's a bengko at the front left side of my car.. Pretty obvious.. Haha..

2) I NEARLY ATE A WORM IN MY BROCCOLI!!! Thank God I didnt ate it!! Wahaha..

3) My hairdryer exploded in sparks right on my very 2 hands when i turned it on this morning.. Haha.. Mei n I were shocked.. Realli shocked.. Thank God i've only dust left on my hands.. Haha..

4) My whole family went out for mummy's day dinner to Paulaner's today.. We only ordered 3 main courses n 1 Salad.. E main courses were all meat, meat n MEAT!!! Sausages, hams, n pork knuckles.. E portions were all so humongous that when we all tabao after that, we packed one big pack back!!! Enough for one dish on a normal chinese cuisine table.. *faint* fat, fat, FAT!!!

5) Finally getting down to something good during the hols.. PLPA, n maybe a part time at Guardian.. Better than nothing too.. Haha..

jongsj

2009-05-10T01:10:00.000-07:00

"My name is not Jacob. My name is Four Arms."

This is what Jacob said when his mum asked him to bathe.. Aint he cute?? Haha.. Amazingly yday i was playing with him the whole night till bout 12.. Haha.. This is one small boy who dun need his sleep.. Haha.. We were both waving our swords at each other attacking each other while e others were playing mahjong beside us.. Haha.. Was so fun yday.. Haha..

bad feeling..

2009-05-09T09:57:00.000-07:00

Stupid mi overwritten a prev post.. Man.. Hai.. anyway, was talking bout something weird..
The orangeness in the sky was observed at 1.02 am, and died down at 1.16am.. I'm almost positive its a fire now... Hope there's no casualties..

Was also talking about mi not facing up to someone.. idk, but I am afraid of making eye contact with someone.. Not sure if its guilt or being afraid.. But u've gotta know that I realli realli do wanna talk to u as we did before.. I'm serious.. Help mi if u can pls?? Pretty pls??

Good night world:)

ohm

2009-05-08T10:11:00.001-07:00

i SEE a trend... I aim to break that trend.. I'm trying k? I'm realli trying.. God please help me.. PLEASE!!! I noe this takes time.. I'm realli doing everything a step at a time..

Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

God, I know I cannot change the world. But I know of the one who can. I can see the changes going on around me. I choose to take my friends' problems and turn it into prayers.

Jam's health, Vic's choices, Xuan's health, Keith's voice, leaders' leadership, e boys' studies, Sze's attachment, WeiKian's internship, James' n Jason's exams, Hong Yu's exams, Clare's choices, Winnie's work, orange coming back, Henry's safety, Jag's persecution, Edmund's conviction, peoples' mentalities, my mentality.

:)

2009-05-07T08:43:00.000-07:00

I take it upon myself to do the things i'm able to do for you.. I would rather u encourage mi to do this, rather than think of it as something that will be a bother to me. As a friend, this is what i'll do.. As a brother, I'll keep you in prayer.. I'm always here:) N God's always here for us all:) Jia you!! You can do it too!!

Jesus Freaks

2009-05-02T10:54:00.000-07:00

The sisters gave the judge the following testimony:

O judge! How is it that you command us to turn away from true godliness, since God has made it known to us that no one is richer or a better bridegroom than Jesus Christ, our Savior? No way of life is more blessed than the Christian faith by which we live and by which mere men have conquered kingdoms. To dwell with Him and to live in Him is our only true provision, but to depart from Him is eternal damnation. We will never be seperated from communion with Him as long as we live in this life; for having given and entrusted our youth into His keeping, we hope to eventually become his bride.
The transient riches of this world, which you have offered us, have no appeal; we count them as manure and loss that we might gain Christ, because we know that everything under the sun except Jesus and true faith in Him is emptiness.
Nor are we moved by your threats of punishment, for such things are even more temporary. As for death, the thing you have presented to us as the final terror is a thing not to be feared but desired, because we know that through it we go without delay to heaven, and to Christ our Bridegroom, and there to be embraced by Him and forevermore inseparable from Him through His love.

They were executed by the sword shortly after that..

Now what say you??

YOU'll WIN

2009-04-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

Did you know that you have always been a winner? A victor?? We are all victors in our different ways, in our different walks.. Although we go thru tough times, periods of uncertainty and trouble, we're always winners.. What makes u think that what u're doing now is wrong?? what makes you think that thats e right way, n this's not?

What didn't break you definitely has made you stronger.. Now pick yourself up from where you fell, for God's people has no room for these disturbing feelings you're having now, but understand that everything you're going thru now is like "been there, done that" to Him, who has planned our life not for disaster, but for us to prosper and do good.. When everything seems against you, remember that God has never been on ur opposition team.. N when God, the eternal winner, is with you, will you not win??

Realise that every point in life is a learning point for you, and you will learn so much much more..

Now get up, and stand tall, for the spirits sent by e devil has no lasting effect on our bodies, the temples of God.. What else can a small setback caused by a small spirit do to us?? Don't cower, for we are not born for cowardice, but rather, we are born for God, who has called us into His highest glory. :) Never were we losers, or cowards..

I pray that God leads you to see this post, n encourage you in what u're going thru..

Clueless

2009-04-24T10:42:00.000-07:00

Then Joshua asked them, "How long are you going to wait before taking possession of the remaining land the Lord, the God of your ancestors, has given you?"

I've a feeling that there's something that I'm suppose to do, but still haf not done anything about it.. But I'm just clueless.. Not as in i dunno what is it, but I'm not sure if which one He's talking about... Friendship? Wisdom? If friendship, which one?? If wisdom, do what?? I'm so blur... Hope I get a revelation soon...

Heez.. Exams ended on wed, which is like 3 days ago le.. Haha.. But was lazy to blog so... Haha.. You know wat la.. Paiseh paiseh.. Haha.. Well, case u dunno, I've withdrawn from e auditions le lo.. Big shock?? Haha.. Well, can say that I've got what I was expecting from it already, and am juz waiting for e right opportunity for mi to realli be in a performing group ba.. Haha.. Wouldn't mind worship team too tho.. Haha.. I'm like a kid going gaga over singing.. Haha.. Doubles e joy when its singing for God.. Haha.. Oh.. N will still be helping my already assigned keyboardist in her auditions by helping her sing.. Haha.. See.. *Beams*

Oh.. N I dunno why but the weather's killing me!!! I'm like sweating 10 min thru playing wii!!! Its madness.. Haha.. Imagine 2 days worth of wii too.. Haha.. Oh, but amazingly, there was this cooling breeze last sun nite i think.. Was juz a short breeze, but dunno why, started to think about little Ms B.. I DUNNO WHY... Haha.. Weird..

Oh.. N hey, feel free to inform mi if u've any job opportunities k? or juz wanna come out morning breakfast oso can:) Haha.. Not too early can le.. Haha.. I like my lazing ard in bed time.. Haha.. Toodles world!!!

From dust to dawn..

2009-04-11T09:20:00.000-07:00

Its great when you know that its God speaking to you.. Galatians 2:20.. I was prompted to memorise this verse sometime earlier this week.. And Amazing Grace was also on my mind this whole week.. N sermon was also speaking about the one thing that I did totally wrong yday.. I could totally feel the difference in spirit when sis wp suddenly said this verse, continuing with the ending of her sermon.. Usually, I would have already felt revitalized after PNW before service, but today, something was literally tugging me back.. pulling me back from God.. Only till swp said the verse then I began to feel better.. Thank God.. If anyone says that this is a coincidence, I want to ask you.. What are the chances for having 3 coincidences happening all at the very same hour??

Today realli impacted on mi that God is realli a transcender of time.. He can realli speak to you about the things you did a few min ago, thru something that has been prepared one week before.. Its realli great.. N now I can say that God realli loves mi.. N that He gives mi attention even though i'm only one of His few million children.. God loves mi.. He loves you too, reader:)

God forgave mi even though I disobeyed Him, turned from Him.. Thank you for your unrelentless love and care:)

Still kinda puzzled by how come so many ppl noe about mi, but I dun even know their names.. Hmm.. Why arh??

sadness madness

2009-04-10T11:26:00.000-07:00

Its a vicious cycle.. At times I realli feel that God's so far away from me.. Aargh.. I cannot take being alone.. HOw do you not make someone feel that he's fighting this war alone??? Its realli painful.. The process and the consequences.. Pure agony.. I realli am angry at myself for all these things, but everytime when I get down to thinkin bout it, I will never remember the anger I felt in e past.. Its like climbing a flight of stairs but suddenly having a force pushing you back to your starting point.. If I cannot overcome this, what else can I do well in??

Master your emotions.. Oh man, I'm not doing what I'm telling others to do... AHHHHH!!!!! HELP!!!!!

Bump!

2009-04-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

Something good n something bad to share wid e stalkers of this blog..

e Good..
I passed e auditions:) E coordinator was trying to call mi on sat, but cos cell was at basement, so didnt haf any reception.. So he ended up calling while i was in e lib:) Thank God for it:) Its a good thing, but kinda was like expecting it le, since there were miss calls on sat.. So didnt realli haf e "SURPRISE" element when i heard it today..

e Bad..
There's a second round for it:( Supposedly briefing is this sat, but i told them tht i wouldn't be free till aft 24th apr.. So now still waiting for his reply on further instructions...
N also, I REALLI DUNNO WAT SONG TO PREP NEXT!!! I used e song that i'm preppin this stage for e first audition le.. How How?? Haha..

Oh! N anyone wanna buy a solar charging jacket for 370 US dollars?? It realli sounds cool:)

elp~

2009-04-02T07:49:00.000-07:00

Quick!! Pray that someone helps mi rid my body of e ache in my shoulders!!! n neck too!! dun wanna haf a one week anniversary for both man!!

is this stress??? Woa...

A sense...

2009-03-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

You know its awkward when it feels awkward.. But you still have to do it because you know that
1. its imminent;
2. its something that encourages another;
3. its something that has been on your mind for a long time;
4. God really wants you to do it;
5. You really want to do it;
6. You believe that it will help you yourself.

:):)

2009-03-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

Adrian is a happy man again today:) Adrian's glad that he chose this form of communication.. Adrian hopes that from now on everyone who chances on this blog gets to say hi first before leaving.. Adrian is thankful for this verse that he's trying to memorise by heart..

"For the sinful nature has always been hostile to God. It never did obeyed God's laws before, and it never will. Thats why those who are under the control of the sinful nature will never be able to please God.
You are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God in you. And Christ lives in you, so that even though your body will die because of sin, the Spirit gives you life because you have been made right with God. The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives within you. And just as God raised Jesus from the dead, He will also give life to your mortal bodies through the same Spirit.
Therefore, brothers and sisters, you have no obligation to do whatever your sinful nature urges you to do. If you live by its dictates, you will die. If through the power of the Spirit you put to death the deeds of your sinful nature, you will live. For all who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God." -Romans 8:7-14

This is to Xuans,
"But the Holy Spirit produces these kinds of fruits in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. There are no laws against these things.
Those who belong to Christ have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to His cross, crucifying them there. Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit's leading in all that we do. Let us not be conceit, let us not provoke one another, let us not be jealous of one another." -Galatians 5:22-24

These are to Wei Kian,
"I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in Me, and I in him, he will bear much fruit, apart from Me, you can do nothing." -John 15:5

"But if you remain in my teachings, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." -John 8:31-32

"If you remain in Me, and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given you. This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples." -John 15:7-8

"As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all man will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." -John 13:15

(Forgot the rest.. Wahaha..)

Adrian wishes all who are having exams soon to take care and rest well.. Adrian hopes to get 4.11 for gpa, so Adrian wishes that everyone who can help in one way or another to really really help him.. Adrian says a BIG THANK YOU to all, and a WARM FUZZY hug to all who are out there feeling cold.. Adrian will try his best to taichi his strength to you, which he has gotten from his Father.. Adrian says good night:)

:)

2009-03-28T09:05:00.001-07:00

Adrian is a happy man today.. Adrian has done something that he has always been wanting to do for a long long time.. Adrian thanks God for what He has done today, giving Adrian the courage to do what he did not dare to do... Adrian shall now sleep a happy man:) Adrian hopes that ice has melted a bit, that old bonds are reforged, that silence is now removed:) Adrian is a happy man:) Adrian smiles:)

But Adrian still has one concern.. Adrian is still worried about a small girl, and hopes that the small girl will contact him soon.. Adrian hopes that everything is going on fine in that small little body of the little girl.. Adrian prays for good health and strength.. Adrian smiles:)

Adrian hopes that that small boy also is still working hard.. Adrian hopes that the small boy will keep asking him questions.. Adrian wishes that the small boy is strong:) Adrian smiles:)

rants

2009-03-26T07:41:00.000-07:00

Finally its e end for both Marketing and Effective Comm.. Erm.. Marketing still has exam la.. But both Presentations are finally over!!! Yay!! Feel like giving myself a break, but still the exams are getting oh-so-close.. Can even smell it from here... N i'm lagging behind already.. Man.. Hai...

Romans 1:9... Telling mi to be courageous and go ahead.. I dun wanna live my life thinking back on how I do not like this feeling.. It seems that i've taken a wrong turn somewhere in the past few months of my life.. I'm doing a 3 point turn now.. *Wonders if you still see this not..* I'm coming home~ I'll wanna work hard.. Help mi k? Lil miss beamy girl.. All I want is our friendship to be as before..

Am kinda worried bout lil miss Jam.. But, I'm not a person who'll usually call.. Should I? Its like even orange too.. Oso kinda worried for him, but still cant overcome this thing with calling.. If u're ok, please tell mi K? Somehow, someway.. I dont care... I wanna know...

Movies

2009-03-22T09:57:00.000-07:00

The Matrix stresses on belief.. Slumdog Millionaire stresses the importance of experiences.. Dont you think this sounds kinda familiar??

Powered By God's Work

TODAY!!

2009-03-21T10:51:00.000-07:00

And just as Jesus opens the door to His house for His friends, so will I open the door of Life to my friends, leading them into a life of pure joy and happiness..

Today was auditions for Hark Performing Team.. Case u dunno, Hark's a music sch i'm attending for vocal lessons.. Had to skip service for this, but still managed to rush down to church in time for icebreakers.. Overall, audition was kinda good:) We were suppose to sing only a chorus of our song, but when i finished my chorus, the judge actually asked for my tcher's name n even asked mi to continue to sing a verse.. Quite happy after that.. Also when i left right after my turn, another tcher whom i walked pass was saying that it was v good:) Hopefully she's not trying to do some psychological help thingy..

You see, I've this problem.. Since young, I've always had low self esteem.. I tend to think that even people close to mi will not be interested in how i feel, in what i do.. I amplify my failures, esp those that'll affect mi socially.. I try my best to thread on thick ice, but when i do fall, i fall hard..

This is why I sometimes only let people noe of things on a need to know basis.. Saves myself from all e trouble if i accidentally hit something somewhere wrong.. Hmm.. Am trying to work on it now tho, so do feel free to encourage mi from time to time:) Thanx:) But still, I would like to help people, esp people whom I've a ominous feeling bout.. Think the experiences i've had is God training mi to be more sensitive to people's thoughts n feelings ba..

Techies

2009-03-19T08:39:00.000-07:00

Is technology a gift, or a slow ticking time-bomb?? *wonders*

Tech lets you write stuffs you dun usually talk about, brings the world closer together than you ever realise (look at Facebook), allows one to befriend other "ones" easily.. Tech opens up a wide resource of knowledge, speeds up research, make what was once impossible possible, cures diseases, etc...

BUT tech also masks intentions and feelings, secludes oneself from the world (XBox360, PS3), makes one dwell in his own VR, indirectly causes insensitivity and violence, gives youngsters a quick shortcut into the "adult" world, create killing machines, are the main cause of mass destruction, causes environmental degradation (mass killing too..), etc...

My tutor told us yday that we're now in the silicon age, juz like how in the past we've bronze age and stone age.. But guess wat?? This silicon age is ending soon.. Researchers predicted that it will end by the year 2020.. And many are now searching for something better to help mankind keep growing.. As what people say, change is the only constant in life.. Its hard to disagree right??

But does it mean that the world is going to end soon?? I think so.. Imagine if some geeky scientist actually discovers something greater and produces GUNDAMs.. In real life mind you.. Its gonna be the end!! End Times man!! Better be careful, for you dunno wats coming up... We're gonna be slaves of technology!!! AHHHH!!!!

2009-03-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

"But if you hold to my teachings, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." -John 8:31-32

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all man will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." -John 13:34-35

"I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit, apart from me, you can do nothing."-John 15:5

"If you remain in me and my word remains in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to My father's glory, that you produce much fruit, showing yourselves to be My disciples." -John 15:7-8

"Greater love has no one than this, that He gave his life for His friends." -John 15:13

"You did not choose Me, but I have chosen you and appointed you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name." -John 15:16

"And Jesus said to them: All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to Me. Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptising them in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age." -Matthew 28:18-20

"Since we each have one body with many members, and each member do not all have the same function, so do we in Christ form one body, with every member belonging to one another." -Matthew 12:4-5

"And Jesus turned to the crowd and said: Those who want to be my followers must first turn from their selfish desires, take up their cross daily and follow Me." -Luke 9:23

""For I know the plans I have for you", says the Lord. "Plans of good, not of disaster, to give you a future, and a hope. In those days, when you pray, I will be listening. If you look for Me wholeheartedly, you will find Me."" -Jeremiah 29:11-12

"But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare your praises unto Him who has called you out from the darkness, and into His wonderful light." -1 Peter 2:9

"But God did not give you a spirit of fear and humility, but of power, love, and self-discipline." - 2 Timothy 1:7

"You are not controlled by your sinful desires. You are controlled by the Spirit, if you have the Spirit of God living within you. And Christ lives within you, so even though your body will die because of sin, the Spirit gives you life because you have been made right with God. The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives within you. And just as God raised Jesus from the dead, He will give life to your mortal bodies through the Spirit living within you.
Therefore, brothers and sisters, you have no obligation to do what your sinful nature urges you to do. If you live by its dictates, you will die. If through the power of the Spirit you put to death the deeds of your sinful nature, you will live. For all who are led by the Spirit are the children of God." -Romans 8:9-14

"But the Holy Spirit produces these kinds of fruits in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. There is no law against such things.
Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to His cross, and crucified them there. Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit's leading in all that we do. Let us not be conceit, or provoke one another, or be jealous of one another." -Galatians 5:22-26

Another one more..

"God disciplines us for our good, taht we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
Therefore, strengthen your feeble armsand weak knees. "Make level pathsfor your feet," so that the lame may not be disables, but rather healed." -Hebrews 12:10-13

Monday blues??

2009-03-16T06:10:00.001-07:00

Do not think of Mondays as a day of blues and the start of a tiresome week.. I think of Mondays as a new week which i can look forward to, as it brings me to new levels.. Monday's the start of a training to look forward with high expectations for the week, knowing that I can learn so much more with the help of the one true Spirit in me..

Its always great to hear bout things going on in peoples' lives.. Lam and I were suddenly talking bout church over lunch tday, and we got e chance to share to e only non-christian within our grp.. U noe wat he said?? He'll only believe in God when he actually gets to encounter Him himself.. Aint that great?? God can make use of every opportunity for His Kingdom to touch the hearts of people..

Glad that Xuan's finally cleared of all her illnesses after ER.. She said when she was helping others break their strongholds, God also healed her at the same time.. N now who can say that He aint real?? If you realli think God's not real, can you care to explain the many times when we were praying for something n we do actually get it?? N when I say get it, it doesn't mean I purposely go and get it, but is that it just comes just from praying!!

I finally got to realli comprehend the understanding of being thankful for the smallest things in life.. Juz having a meal with my mum, mei, n john already made mi kinda happy.. I realise that i'm also slowly learning to openly speak about God to people.. God's training me.. Thank you God:)

I dont care what the world says behind me.. I dont care what people think about me.. I dont care what do people know about me.. I dont care what I feel about myself.. No more Me, myself, and I.. I wish everyday to be like that... Pray hard..

How??

2009-03-15T03:08:00.001-07:00

God - Singing = God
Singing - God = Singing
God + Singing = Godly Singing

Sometimes i feel like the first statement, sometimes i feel like the second.. I guess, I've still yet to experience the third daily.. HOW? How can I learn this??

Its like
Infinity - 0 = Infinity
0 - Infinity = -Infinity

More of You, less of me.. More of helping, serving, rara-ing, enjoying company, doing the right thing.. Less of senseless thoughts, headaches, unsteady emotions..

I'm actually worrying bout my studies now.. But its still mentally, not physically.. Some people say that I do think too much.. Even going into details on eating at Ya Kun's.. I do agree with that.. That I should not be bothering too much on details.. Kinda remembered that I've only ate a wafer n some egg crisp rolls before bs... So now stomach bit grumbling...

There's also some people who tell mi that I'm sensitive, but may be bit oversensitive at times.. I feel that its good to be sensitive.. As in, no matter how uncomfortable i'll be, I'll try to speak english to you when we've a malay fren of urs with us.. notice if someone's day has not been v good.. Oversensitive as in, people's line of sight just bounces off mi, how i tend to want to not join you and your frens for lunch, how do people noe my name when I dun even noe them..

I can be sensitive to people, but insensitive to God.. Hai... Why like that??? Help Help!!!

blubber!!

2009-03-13T07:15:00.000-07:00

Its great to wake up to the sound of the super enthu deejays on 933 saying "Its Friday!!~".. Always makes me realise that the week's almost over!! Always looking forward to saturdays, but at the thought of 4 weeks to exam, it kinda pulls mi back to reality... Hai...

Was kinda happy with this week, mainly cos of a few things.. Fellowship was realli done thruout the week.. Mon called orange and chatted wid him, tues was kinda low.. But alot of ppl were encouraging mi on Wed after reading!! Spent time wid small lil Jam on Wed, thurs was watching movie wid orange n fried rice, thurs also had a short chat wid Zhi Wen, Fri got to meet Wei Jian for discipleship.. See.. A well planned out week.. Sometimes, its your small delibrate acts that help lift up your spirits, but also sometimes, its also others' unwillingness that brings yuor morale down to way low...

I find it kinda hard to maintain friendships when there's little room to communicate, but well, God draws people closer.. If its meant to be like this, it'll be:) Dun worry people n frens i dun realli see every week.. I still rmb you:) Am wanting to see ya all again, but its gotta hold till after exams.. Real sorry.. Meanwhile, rmb to miss mi everywhere you go! Haha.. (Is this why I always sneeze?? Hmm... Probably I guess..)

Didnt noe wat to title this post.. Lol.. I like blubber:)

I

2009-03-10T09:52:00.000-07:00

To say some things about me..

I like to eat pi pa gao..

I love sashimi.. But too little chance to eat nowadays..

I've always had a low self esteem.. Discovered this when I was in Pri 5/6..

I am a social person.. I crave people's company..

I am nothing without God..

I wanna watch Slumdog Millionaire..

After doing QT in school, I've this feeling that I'm slowly becoming a loner..

Every tuesday, I will get to sing the super emo song posted earlier...

I am really SHY.. If our eyes dun meet n u're still a stranger to me, even though we see each other every week, I will not make it a point to talk to you..

I think alot.. too much at some points of time..

I am a relationship person.. I always want to get into a relationship.. But sometimes I do things wrongly..

I might be closing this blog soon..

I love family dinners..

I am sensitive, but ignorant in different situations..

I want to close this door and never open it ever again..

I can still remember the kids from 5I/J.. Now 6I/J i think... Melvin, Yes I do remember you, small boy...

I wish I could slap myself for doing stupid things sometimes...

I want to run away.. But God's pushing me forward still..

I want to be stronger, so I can stop thinking of things this way... I'm praying for this everyday.

If God wasnt in my life, I would realli be in a great depression almost everyday..

I am alive with God's grace..

No more cas..

2009-03-05T04:17:00.000-08:00

Ca's finally over!!! Everybody go CRAZY!!!!! Wrarw!!!! ITS PARTY TIME!!!

Haha.. Chem ca was tricky but stupid la.. Case you dunno, NTU tests usually are like in a tutorial group, the tutors will give out different sets of papers to prevent people from copying each other's papers.. For this chem paper, amazingly, the tutors did an amazing thing.. The difference between the different sets of question papers is the sequence of questions... Meaning that the questions are exactly the same, juz that they were jumbled up only.. It was so... interesting... Haha.. Mi n my fren were like auite duhhed out by it.. Den in e end we could compare answers.. Lol.. Interesting...

Emo song..

2009-03-04T06:16:00.001-08:00

Grr.. Some stupid error has made mi post this twice.. Grr..

Anyway, Juz wanted to share wid u all e song I'm singing for my stage 2 vocal training, mainly focusing on expressing feelings.. This is not one of e reasons as to why i will occassionally emo suddenly, I assure you:)

让每个人都心碎黄大炜

城市一片漆黑
谁都不能看见谁
除非紧紧的依偎

我让自己喝醉
没有你我就不能入睡
整夜又整夜地徘徊

我说过我绝对不会后悔
寂寞是被原谅的罪喔
爱情怎么让每个人都心碎
怎么去安慰
爱情怎么让每个人都流泪喔

城市一片漆黑
谁都不能看见谁
除非紧紧的依偎
我让自己喝醉
没有你我就不能入睡
整夜又整夜的徘徊

我说过我绝对不会后悔
寂寞是被原谅的罪喔
爱情怎么让每个人都心碎
怎么去安慰
爱情怎么让每个人都流泪
你的泪烫伤我的脸
那一次我尝到伤悲
~~~
music

我说过我绝对不会后悔
寂寞是被原谅的罪喔
爱情怎么让每个人都心碎
怎么去安慰
爱情怎么让每个人都流泪
你的泪烫伤我的脸
从此就再也说不出
我爱谁~~~

Emo rite?? Well, thats juz how it is ba.. N my tcher say I've a problem expressing myself in this song.. Hmm.. Btw, she sang this exact same song for 5 years worth of competitions i think.. N still got champ.. Lol.. This is how good she is:)
But will still work hard in my feelings part ba:) I always feel like i'm acting when I sing.. Haha.. Muz get into the role de.. My tcher keep scolding mi for not doing it.. Hmm..

Bedazzled..

2009-03-04T05:48:00.000-08:00

Amazingly, I realise that people do check my blog way early in e mornin!! 6am even!! Wow.. Good morning!!! Wake up sunshine!! Have a good start of the day!! (Am starting to wonder if is someone playing a trick on mi... Hmm...) Not even I myself will do this man.. Lol..

But thanx anyway peeps:) Thanx for ur care n concern, even though I had a feeling that no one would ever come on this blog anymore other than a few peeps.. Thanx all :) (90degrees bow)

To..

2009-03-02T05:53:00.001-08:00

To those who replied, thanx.. Lets mi noe that at least u still noe of mi.. To those who didnt, I juz hoped you received it.. If you changed ur phone no n didnt inform mi, I'll grab ur head under my arms n drill ur skull wid my knuckles.. But I guess I wouldn't have known anyway.. Lol.

Am having problems with e song for music school.. Cant seem to get e prog working.. Hai.. I need help..

Yday was feeling a bit ti-xin-diao-dan bout this morn's quiz.. Thank God for making it easy.. Haha.. Thank God He gave mi brains to digest the formulas.. Ernz was describing mi as a sotong doing quiz.. Haha.. At least the sotong had to provide help to "some people" in her english.. Lol.. Who's the real blur sotong here? Haha.. *bleah*

Few days ago decided to do a small testing somewhere.. Am glad at the results.. Wahaha.. At least there's still some who cares:) Thanx all!! :).

Oh, n one more thing to add, please do take care of urselves peeps:) drink more water n eat more fruits:) Rainy season again i think.. Wrap urselves up in a blanket when u slp if needed.. The economy's failing, so is the environment.. Lets not make life any worse k? Take care of urself on e road too:)

Am thankful for seeing 2 prayers answered too:) Hope to see ya ard soon! Nitez!

SLOW DOWN!!!!!

2009-03-01T06:13:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. The blog's slowly bleeding to death... Haha.. Well, a good thing n maybe a bad thing ba.. Hmm... At least now can post more personal stuffs ba.. Hmm.. At least is hopefully you dun get to read this if i'm blasting off my heads at you la.. Haha.. Well.. Dun realli do that too do i? Hmm.. But somehow get this feeling that slowly close frens are moving further away from mi.. Am being more oblivious to people's lives.. Give mi back my friends!!!! Life, please slow down a bit as we get to enjoy the fellowship we have..

Everyone quite get a small cup of tea n sit in front of ur com as you see this... Slow down n sip this cup of tea as you enjoy time spent in relaxation, basking under the light:) You know you need this..

Recess

2009-02-27T08:37:00.000-08:00

Recess is over.. The rest has come to an end.. Yet still, I'm looking forward to every saturday, when I get to see you guys.. Its great to be in God's family enjoying the glory and praise in God.. Its great to think that sunday's cafe duty.. Its great to be of service to people.. Look forward expectantly.. Thats what God says.. I'm looking forward.. For if I look behind, I look at the mistakes, the past glories, everything that will not change my future.. Reflections are always a must, but will not keep looking back.. Jia You to all who're going back to school:) Its time for another push before e 3 months.. Jia You! :)

G.O.D

2009-02-25T08:16:00.000-08:00

Jia You peeps:) Jia You:)

Push in everything U're doing, Persevere for all that its worth.. Do the daily things that you need to do, but always remember of the connection you have with El Elyon..

Remember El Shaddai, who gave you the life's opportunities..

Jehova Jireh, who provides for all your daily needs..

Jehova Shalom, who brings peace to the hearts of His children as they rest in His arms..

Jehova Sabaoth, who gives you aid when you are spiritually low..

Jehova Rapha, who heals and mends your broken wounds..

Praise Him who made the skies blue and the clouds white,

Yahweh, who gave the fire its warmth and the ice its cold.

Elohim, who has guaranteed our way to His side after going through all trials..

Praise Him.. PraiseHim..

The day that started off quite wrong..

2009-02-24T07:48:00.000-08:00

The day that started off quite wrong.. Why??

Woke up at 11 today.. Didnt pray in the morning.. No excuse to be given.. N dunno why I didnt pray even though its my usual routine.. Got super annoyed at a little minute incident wid my sisters.. Oso dunno why I got so frustrated.. I seriously didnt noe what was going on wid mi this mornin..

Got on e train to school when I heard "So You Would Come".. Seriously touched.. "God has given this much, has done so much for us to come to Him.. You may think you have nothing to give.. You might have a broken heart, a broken life, but Jesus still wants you to come.." N now I'm with Him, He still never stopped giving.. God tells me to be thankful for every small thing in my life.. I am.. I juz wonder why does my spirit flunctuate so even more greatly these days.. Unknowingly, I can use the d**n word these days.. How do I get back to the root? How do I get back to the vine, that holds on ever so tightly onto this branch thats falling off? I dun wanna be a fair-weather boy.. I wanna be a super hero.. A purple cow.. A purple rabbit..

I'm biting off something i cant chew.. Why fly, when you cant even walk?? Take a step at a time boy.. God's a lamp that guides us step by step.. Not a lamppost that shows us everything in front n behind us.. Not a torch that only shows us our destination.. Slowly boy.. Slowly boy.. :)

I pray that my affection for you will never change.. Ever since the day I met you.. Even if it bears fruit a year or two later, I still will wait for your timing.. I love you God, love you..

So You Would Come - Hillsong

yday

2009-02-22T04:54:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. Yday was fun, with e community service to Geylang Old Folks Home.. Got to know quite alot of ppl from Hark music school.. Looked after the elders during their lunch, sang quite a number of songs too.. There wasn't a stage there, cos it was at a elderly day time activities corner under a HDB building, but it helped mi feel closer to the ppl there.. There were a group of teens there also to help them in their lunch, and also perform some magic tricks.. Some of the tricks were blatantly obvious la, but still, it was good effort.. Haha.. The performers oso purposely dressed nicely for the magic show..

During our performance, at one time we were singing some song when i suddenly felt like jumping to the music, just like during PNW.. At that point of time I felt that God was like smiling at us.. Felt so happy.. I think I have a dream now.. I wanna be like a singer, going around for performances, rushing ard to fit into tight schedules.. Noe that it'll be tired, but still I feel that its worth it.. It'll be best if the rushing ard was from church to church too.. Haha... God says can dream big.. Haha.. I'm dreaming now.. :)

But all these is only possible if its in God's will, n like Jesus, I willingly leave it to God to decide my direction in life.. Occassional thoughts bout * for the past years has harden mi into making the wrong move.. I'm not gonna make the same mistake again.. If its meant to be, it will definitely come to pass.. 2009 will be a year of growth for mi:) Hopefully for you too:)

Its a brand new day~

2009-02-18T05:36:00.002-08:00

The BIG difference when God's a factor in your decisions...

This time, I remembered to pray for my presentation.. Not just once, but Twice!! N although this time round was only talking on one slide, which I had to further explain the examples given, Everything was smooth flowing!! Words that came out from my mouth actually connected with each other quite well!! Haha.. Still rmb e last time de.. Super Chui... Haha.. Thank God!!

N when God tells you to wash the dishes, you Jolly well go wash!! Hmm.. This time, I realli did go wash, not just my own plate, but I CLEANED UP e whole table of empty plates n washed!! N thankfully my jie was washing wid mi too:) haha..

Zhong Hua smsed mi something in e morn.. "Your life begins to change when you change something you do everyday." I want my life to change.. things will not take a turn for the worse, when its already at the worst.. I want to clean my life up.. Please help mi, friends n family of mine:) Love ya all.. Thanx:)

2009-02-17T08:18:00.000-08:00

Would you forgive n forget??

Question

2009-02-14T09:30:00.000-08:00

Why do every young one in church have to do Masterlife everyday? What is the true purpose of it??

Was popped this question during cell.. Felt that e answer I gave was quite comprehensive.. One of e few times when I do say the right thing at the right time.. Issit Holy Spirit's work?? Surely hope so...

Masterlife's a form of discipleship where one gets to learn more about God's commandments and the main reason behind our belief.. That is our relationship with God.. It is through this relationship that we were saved, and thus I would pose a question to you.. Would you want to know more about someone who loves you and is always right beside you, in times of joy and sorrow? God has plans for us.. Good plans to make us prosper, not in the ways of the world, but in riches and treasures that can be brought forward into heaven.. Would you want to know more about Him, and be willing to hear Him day by day?? When you want to make a commitment, you will want to spend time to know more about God's character.. Masterlife teaches God's character in this case, and it also provides practical living and insight to how we solve problems the Jesus way..

This knowledge that is found in this book cannot be taught within one sermon or even a couple.. This information has to be slowly digested, slowly internalized as we ponder on it day by day.. I would boldly say that not many people will make it a point to revisit the notes that he/she copies during sermons unless needed.. If it is taught in one sermon, I do strongly believe that it will not have much of an impact on us as much as us reading up everyday.. Now, why everyday?? Take this as a form of training.. Ponder on God's words everyday and talk to God everyday.. First we'll find it probably tough and tiring, but as the weeks go by, as we move further and further into the book, one'll realise that it aint that hard at all.. This method of teaching us allows us to continually, and habitually speak and listen to God..

Why everyone has to do it?? Now I ask you, if your leader tells you to do this, and tells another that he dun have to do it, wat would your first reaction be?? "He's stronger in God that me??","What?? I need to do this and he dun need?? No fair!!".. This relationship with God is personal and does not need a competitive force to drive us to work harder.. What I'll learn from this book is also different from what you learn from this book.. Do not build your relationship with God on other's experiences.. This is what I learnt.. The church's doing us a favour by asking everyone to do this together, as it brings about a common goal where we all will be able to celebrate for after 12 weeks.. So be thankful if you were either forced, bribed, or coerced to do this by your friendly leaders..

Why 12 weeks?? Good question.. But maybe you should ask God why 7 days in a week first...

All in all, I pray that everyone who's been faithful in following the "Masterlife" book daily, while at the same time continuing in their Bible Reading Plan while not forgetting their daily quiet times too.. Be wary to not mistake the book for the bible, for the bible holds that Final authority of God's words.. May The Lord see our faithfulness and bless us after this 12 weeks with the changes that we'll go thru and may we never be the same as before again.. Let us remain focused on Him.. May the 12 weeks come by like a breeze as we enter this new season of change..

The Lord is a lamp on my feet.
He shines the path ahead of me,
and guides me to the goal He has planned.

He is the pillar I draw strength from,
the One I lean on when I fall.
The cloud that provides me with solace,
the fire that saved my cold-stricken heart.

His love is poured out on all,
His love is unrestrictive to all.

Now that you know of His sacrifice,
His desire for you to come to Him.
Can you feel His love for you?

The day the mind overpowered the heart, body, and spirit..

2009-02-13T06:30:00.000-08:00

Well, all i can say is that the day didnt realli go as well as i hoped.. hmm.. But still, I totally failed in all the tests that I was asking God for.. First impatience, then sinful thoughts, followed by poor self control..

But I thank You for helping mi solve this problem that I couldn't even handle myself.. Its like a growing monster in me.. Sometimes'll slowly eat up my time n my brain space.. But well, since its now in the light (I hope it is).. Ohhh nooo.. Somehow kinda feel that u still am not sure of wat i'm talking about.. Hai.. Well, since its kinda rare for mi to do something like this, guess i'll give u e benefit of e doubt ba.. Hmm... But it realli feels great having it off my chest.. Hmm.. Dun have to cover it wid all e blankets and towels to make sure no one notices it too.. Hopefully now there's another person who knows this.. Hmm.. :) Oh.. N i realli mean wat i said juz now k? Think this was one way that God spoke to mi about.. I better keep quiet and wait for Him to tell mi wat to do next time.. Cos its like, I knew that God told mi to do this to tell mi to set my focus back on track.. Once bitten, twice shy, but still, as long as there's a chance, you'll definitely see mi there..

Am thinking of reading up on some materials totally different.. Its on Catholism.. Feel that I should do some reading up on it so that i'll be able to understand and identify some areas of their belief.. Would realli wanna help people understand more about the difference between a Catholic N a Christian, and hopefully correct them if possible.. Can someone tell mi if thats the right thing to do or not?? Cos I'm realli not sure..

Today!!!

2009-02-11T05:15:00.000-08:00

WooHoo!! First time this year cooking dinner for family.. Haha.. Off course is wid my mum beside mi guiding mi la.. Haha.. Anyone wanna try my cooking?? Haha.. Stir fried kailan wid garlic, prawns with egg, and fried salmon!! Haha.. Gives mi a good feeling although was super tired tday.. Hmm.. Wasnt payin attention during marketing sem too..

Bumped into Henry TWICE tday!! TWICE!! When usually i dun even get to see him at all.. Haha.. So far, have seen Henry twice, Wei Kian twice, Clare Nil, Kenny Nil (wonders why..), Pei Jun Every week.. Haha..

Juz realised this.. Blogger.com's technically still has not been verified by mi yet.. Haha.. N its quite some time lo...

Another thing.. Heard from Lynn that Planetshakers might be comin over to church this Sun!! Keep mi informed ya shepherd:)

I am tired..

2009-02-09T03:52:00.000-08:00

I think i need my beauty slp too man.. 7 hrs is not enough.. 10's e magic number.. Haha.. My body's groaning for more, esp during lectures.. Getting harder and harder to stay up, listening to a person who seemingly speaks in Eng.. (I suspect he's speaking some alien language tho..) Thankfully his part of e sem's lectures are officially over.. Some 经典examples that i barely managed to make out..
"Condom physics" = Quantum physics,
"Wavefrank" = Wavelength,
"Feitha" = thether (as in angles),
"Solush-eh-n" = solution,
"Wave Funsh-eh-n" = Wave Function.

I'll agree that all lectures from now on should go back to NIE to brush up on their language.. Someone please help the school maximise their spending costs by hiring new lecturers or with a rule that they'll get a pay cut unless they improve on their lang.. NTU needs help on this man..

Thoughts

2009-02-05T06:55:00.000-08:00

Just a few moments ago, I felt that I should have been stoned.. So many things I thought I should have known.. So many things that were right smack under my eyes and yet I did not even do it..

When man loses courage to say out what his heart has to say, he turns to technology to attempt to reveal his thoughts..

Mei, You know how much I love you, how much I want to be there for you all the time.. At times I may be irritated and ignore you, but I pray you bear in mind that you remember that someone out there cares for you.. And there's someone who's higher than us who loves you even more. So much that He's always watching over you, helping you in secret. All He wishes is for you to recognise His presence and love Him back. He's the perfect man that every human searches for, and most do not find. I've this God who's backing my up in my training to be a better man. If He can help mi do this, He can surely do this for you too.. I love you, God loves you.

To Miss Anonymous, I AM finding it hard not to tell you about my feelings.. But I noe that God can help me with this.. But all that I want to say for now is that I would want to get to know you better.. I do hope you'll not read this, but since you'll not noe who you are, I guess its alright then. All i wanna do is to noe u alot more.. Not to start in a relationship now.. I'm still duper not ready..

Untitled Title

2009-02-03T08:06:00.001-08:00

Today.. The 2nd day of eating steamboat leftovers... Wow... Why every other tues have to be so rush?? Wanna rest oso cannot.. Hai...

Was on e mrt when i was reading this..

Psalm 54

Come with great power, O God, and rescue me!

Defend me with your might.

Listen to my prayer, O God.

Pay attention to my plea.

For strangers are attacking me;

violent people are trying to kill me.

They care nothing for God.

Interlude

But God is my helper.

The Lord keeps me alive!

May the evil plans of my enemies be turned against them.

Do as you promised and put an end to them.
I will sacrifice a voluntary offering to you;

I will praise your name, O Lord,

for it is good.

For you have rescued me from my troubles

and helped me to triumph over my enemies.

Reminds mi of a guy I noe.. Dun remember his name, but only remembers wat's he going thru for Christ.. Hope that he's still strong in faith.. Persecutors are always around, but stay strong:) Please keep in contact with him if u noe who i'm talking about.. Not alot will noe i think... But still.. God knows, and thats wats most important..

Thoughts

2009-01-29T19:35:00.000-08:00

I'm surrounded by alot of noise.. Mentally..

You are one of my tumbling blocks.. One of the bigger ones too..

I love my family:)

I'm waiting..

I'm a bottomless pit for people's troubles.. But when it comes to mine, I find it always full..

I love sashimi!!

Its been 10 years..

I dun really share my toughts with alot of people..

2 years since I....

I love suspense.. I eat it for breakfast (Yum) :)

I miss my friends..

I feel that I'm overly conscious during PNW at e stairs.. Issit cos of e place??

I'm a family person..

I dun understand why some people like kimchi..

I long for a relationship..

I've given 2 years for Him to..

I'm hungry..

I'm not sure why I'm so desperately saving up money..

Poseidon's showing on Sun!!

I'm gonna be bored this Sun..

I WANT to be loved.. (Don't everyone??)

I feel that I'm an accelerated learner at work..

I like to play games.. *smiles*

A good husband muz first have a wife..

The heart is lower than the mind, and when there's too many thoughts in the mind, it bogs the heart down..

Bang, bang ,bang. Who's dead??

I once promised someone that I wont be attached within a year..

Why are there more and more people talking about relationships to mi nowadays!!!???

I'm on Nanyang Chronicles pg 8, thanx to my cousin :)

I dun feel like studying now.. Super Emo...

I AM in Lee Wee Nam Library now:)

I think I am oversensitive.. Or issit some people are not sensitive enough??

I am laid back.. But I dun wanna be..

I am so thankful for God's love..

I find it hard to sing PNW songs at home..

It makes mi sad hearing about the past..

Haiz...

2009-01-27T21:05:00.000-08:00

Groan.. Day 3.. Nothing to do.. Am considering not going for sem this aftnoon.. Cos even if i go, i'll only be sitting down n listening to others present their studies.. Kinda waste time.. Hmm.. But still, am havin diarrhoea.. Amazing rite?? Didnt eat anything wrong, but still am feeling uneasy.. Wish my cousins could come over for dinner earlier.. Hmm.. Am wondering wat everyone else's doing now.. Hai....

When I think back on those times..

2009-01-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

You know those times when u think back on what has happened juz a few min ago and start to regret that why didnt u do this, why didnt you do that.... Kinda bothers mi.. Everything that i do, I will always regret.. somehow, one way or another.. Oh my... The bother... Like why didnt I open the door to tell u something.. Why didnt i help that elderly pick up her med.. Like why wasnt i there when i should be.. I think i'm too slow.. I think too slow, I react too slow man..

If an accident was to happen suddenly in front of mi, i surely will die.. If i could save someone from certain despair, I think that person will surely be downtrodden before i even start to react.. God, help mi be like radioactive man.. (Not in those tights la..) I wanna be there for ppl, but I dun just wanna be there to console, but rather to help them walk away from certain disaster.. God change me.. Please...

Btw, I'm not joinin e competition le.. Exams comin in april, n e final's on april too.. Dun wanna risk both.. Someday, I'm juz gonna compete in one for sure.. Someday..

Torn..

2009-01-21T02:45:00.000-08:00

I'm kinda torn in between... Should I go or not?? I need opinions...

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God show mi the way..

Words

2009-01-17T18:25:00.000-08:00

Be watchful, Young one of the untamed mouth
For it can hurt you in many ways.

In ways you can understand,
In ways unfathomable too.

Words that could slay the mighty Leviathan,
Words that fell the Walls of Jericho.

Of curses and swears,
Of comments and scares.

But I say unto you,
That every idle word that men shall speak,
they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.
-Matthew 12:36

So watch your words and keep them leashed,
Tame the wild beast, and let it sleep.

For God so hears, every claim you make,
The words you say will either acquit you or condemn you.
-Matthew 12:37

Neither present your members unto sin as instruments of unrighteousness;
But present yourselves unto God,
as alive from the dead,
And your members as instruments of righteousness unto God.
-Romans 6:13

Therefore, I urge you, brothers,
in view of God's mercy,
to offer your bodies as living sacrifices,
holy and pleasing to God
—this is your spiritual act of worship.
-Romans 12:1

God bless the souls of those who learn,
The fruits of the spirit will be laid on them.

Of love and joy,
Of peace and patience.

Of kindness and goodness,
Of faithfulness and gentleness.

And of self-control, that gives power over temptations,
Over the relentless attacks of the Evil One.

Be watchful, Young one of the untamed mouth
For it brings to one a brighter day,
Or yet, another disastrous day.

God bless Your soul,
Your Faithful son.

This goes out to you

2009-01-16T05:50:00.000-08:00

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head

You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread

I lose my way but still you seem to understand

Now and forever I will be your man.

Sometimes I just hold you

Too caught up in me to see

I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me

I'll try to show you each and every way I can

Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure

That I won't be alone anymore

If I'd only known you were there all the time

All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand

Now and forever I will be your man

For those who loved, are loving, and will be loved..

A sweet song to God too.. Don't you think so??

Owned...

2009-01-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

Wahaha.. Today is the first time i totally OWNED 2 PROFESSORs!!! Haha.. One was during Phys tut, another was during computing practical, when i was doing computing exercise 4 out of 5 of tutorial 2.. Guess wat?? This is only the first tutorial, n I'm already breezing my way thru to tut 2!! Wow.. Thanx for all the Computing knowledge beforehand.. HAha.. Den oso was tutoring my neighbouring classmates.. Haha.. But the computing knowledge that i still have in my puny brain is kinda limited, so had to ask e prof a bit of things..

What actually owned him was an exercise, which we were doing some math problem and had to use some specific term for some use.. "%lf" was supposedly the correct term we had to use, but since the notes taht weer given to us were not that clear, i ended up typing "%1f".. "%1f", "%lf" if you cannot see the difference, you've got to look even closer.. Realli a big difference man.. Haha..

So when i was working on it, i got an error in the result, so first i asked the teaching assistant.. He came over n asked mi to do all sorts of weird useless stuffs, which were in vain.. Still had the same errors.. So, i concluded that he didnt even read the questions beforehand and was probably new.. Nvm.. Forgive him.. (I'm super forgiving:) ) Den asked the Prof for help, den he sat down beside mi, n both of us starting to ponder on it.. With his super Indian accent, he told mi: "Your codes are all exactly the same as the notes, there should not be any problems!" He told mi this a few times while reading thru the codes over n over again.. By this time, i was sitting quite close to the computer screen, den i noticed.. the term that i mentioned above seemed different from the term that he inserted into my code.. Realising this, i changed the terms, n HEY PRESTO!! Everything worked!! It all ended with him laughing loudly, telling the assistant how he could not notice the error after reading so long.. Haha.. Owned..

Phys Tut we were going thru tut questions, n our tcher is like.. C-H-U-I.. Incident sounds like instant, pronunciation was super bad.. N first time i see a prof using cosine = hypothenus / adjacent.. (referring to toa cah soh in math).. We had to kep correcting him in his errors.. Lol.. Best thing was his final error.. His equation anyhow write, den when some of us told him bout the error, he replied as he made the changes: "Ac~Chuer~Ly, I make mistakes is to see if you all awake or not.. Haha.." The whole class nearly wanted to break out in laughter, when suddenly, "Er.. Sir.. Really ah?? Equation still wrong leh..", I told him.. Everyone laughed.. Owned..

After lessons, met Jam after her lec.. Not realli after, cos she kinda left halfway.. Haha.. Cos her notes weren't wid her anyway.. Kinda got snitched.. Haha.. Anyway, we both studied tgt after that while waiting for our parents to fetch us.. (er.. Different parents mind you:) ) Den i kinda shared something that i didnt realli told anyone before.. (Not that i remember of at least..) But still, am encouraged by her words, n am now even more wanting God to take His time n action in it.. Aint it great if it realli came to pass? *winks*

Mum came over for dinner at can A today.. N she said the food was not bad! Haha.. So case u're wondering how good it is, come over for lunch or dinner ok? We can meet together:) *smiles*

God's grace:) God's love:) God's joy:) God's peace:) God's patience:) God's kindness:) God's goodness:) God's faithfulness:) God's gentleness:) God's-control!! Good Night:) God's bless:)!!

Emo Night..

2009-01-11T05:56:00.000-08:00

Was watching The Terminal on Chan 5.. Such a touching story.. E show was not just 1 story, but a series of events that gave mi the "aww" feeling.. Heartwarming.. N also its kinda like teaching us the importance of attitude.. Making the most out of the things you can do, esp when you think you can only do 'this much'; being persistent in reaching out for ur goal.. He's just a simple man stuck in his surroundings.. Wat bout us?? We aint stuck like him, but we gotta get the attitude from him:)

Notice the scriptwriter's proper usage of terms n words that lets one think less than what the other's trying to put forward.. Its quite thought provoking when Tom Hanks says "I'm waiting" thru e show.. This kinda goes to show that we tend to percieve/understand things usually according to what we know.. Until when we finally get to know what his purpose was in going there, then will we fully understand what he was trying to put forward to the people he meet..

Why i say its Emo nite?? Cos the weather's cool, while listening to songs on tv.. 星光大道4.. Den most of em were singing sad songs.. Makes mi remember things.. That time after hearing the story.. The times in JC in the night.. Haha.. Wasnt moody tho, case anyone misunderstands.. Was juz wishing for some things.. :) Heez.. Pray.. Pray..

Oh.. N Rica-jie asked mi bout my dream date.. Hai.. Well.. Its a dream all right!! Wannna noe?! Haha.. Ask mi urself:) *smiles*

Waiting for 'THE DAY'

First Day..

2009-01-05T06:26:00.000-08:00

First day at school was ok la.. Juz the usual going around for lessons (as always).. so glad that everyone's doin mostly the same modules again.. Thank God.. Kinda feel that this sem'll be alot more different that last sem.. But for the better off course:) Makes mi look forward to going to school, although there's more super long breaks, esp weds, from 1130 to 430.. Totally empty.. Haha.. May God help mi fill my time up nicely.. Haha..

First time taking part in add/drop period.. Its like at 6.59pm, MB103 was like min 25 vacancies; n at 7.01pm, only 1 vacancy!! Thankfully i grabbed e chance when i could.. After that tried refreshing to see if there were any other vacancies, NONE! Did that till 8 when Jam called..

Oh oh oh.. N finally after 3 years, I get to see this small, puny, sweet-looking, stone-ing female friend of mine!! Jam Chen!! Haha.. Still the same girl, but now with a different "feeling" around her.. Gives mi the sense of maturity n independence feeling, which i never seen before in her in PJ.. Haha.. So interesting.. Was it e 3 years of non-contact uni life, or the 6 mths in Norway that caused this? Hmm.. Interesting.. Will i turn out like that after 3 years?? Haha.. Maybe? Maybe not?? :) Thanx for e ride too! (Super amusing to see u stone aft so long.. Wahaha.. Its a good thing :) )

Am wondering if anyone actually reads my awfully long posts, but still.. If u can make it this far, u CAN read THE STRAITS TIMES!! Haha.. Anyway, kinda laazy to change my blogskin, so if there's any kind soul who's helpful enough, pls tell mi k? Thanx:)

Its all in the mind..

2009-01-02T06:37:00.000-08:00

Dreamt that i got back my jacket, which i misplaced on e way to church.. So sad.. Now only left wid one jac, better make sure dun lose it.. Haha..

Am having a sore throat n weird knee now.. Dunno why my knee suddenly like dat, like cannot straighten properly de.. Muz slowly slowly den can.. Woke up being shocked in pain by it, but slowly got better as e day passed le.. Torturous, cos i actually intended to go bballing wid edwin tday.. Too bad.. Hmm.. N imagine the agony of playin bball with a sore throat.. Ugh..

Why i say its all in e mind?? Not cause of my throat or knee, but that i need to remind myself of my 2 year training.. N need to constantly remind summore.. Haha.. Wanna open up my mind.. wid this 2 years of training, i believe it will help mi improve myself.. Jia You!! 2010 Sept's e date! Or maybe Oct sounds better? Hmm.. My bdaay.. Haha.. Ok. Nobody understands wat i'm saying here anyway.. Haha..

Am wondering if wordpress is realli good not.. Cos i realli find that e password protect thing's kinda good.. Let mi spam somethings i dun wan many to hear bout.. Haha.. But kinda lazy to start everything over again.. At first i was anti-bloggin, den i started.. Now i'm tryin facebook.. Haha.. Its all in the mind!!

Happy 2009!!!

2009-01-01T19:25:00.000-08:00

My last few min of 2008 was spent on Rayman's Raving Rabbids on wii at sean's house.. Crazy man.. Cant believe we actually stood up till 7am playing it. End up everyone slpt over at his house.. Haha.. Even chels too!! N e best thing is that her mum actually prepared everything needed for stayover for her right before WE even decided to stayover.. (Which we did not even anticipated).. Goes to show one more thing.. See how parents can sooo understand their children?? Its great to be able to fall back on parents, n better to fall back on God too!!

Juz went to facebook today.. First time in n-th months.. 60 friend requests.. Was thinking: "Wa. So many ppl still rmb mi?? Cool!" Haha.. Den as i was happily clicking on Accept, I realised that i even forgotten bout some of them.. Needed to look at their faces den realise who're they.. Many people have changed, not the same as before le.. Even some who were close to mi at a point of time, n yet i've dealt great damage to them.. Thank God that they're now so much better..

Anyways, to all who've juz stepped into 2009, work hard, study hard, play hard, n keep pondering n reflecting! Smilez n cheers to everyone, His blessings be on u:)

Up-to-dates

2008-12-29T08:23:00.000-08:00

Aint gonna blog bout chalet le cos there's realli too much to blog bout.. er.. Thinkin bout e 3 bombs thing.. Well, 1's halfway diffused, 1 undefused, n 1 totally diffused n nearly forgotten le..

E undiffused.. I might be disciplin the new little orange in cell.. Haha.. Gotta need alot of help on that, so if u've time to pray, help mi with this too k? haha... Thanx:)

Totally diffused.. Was e performance.. Was actually an evaluation for my stage 1 vocal lessons.. My tcher bombed mi with a totally unexpected pitch of 3 keys higher than my usual key.. Was singin halfway thru e song, into e chorus, when i juz stopped n told my tcher, who was at e cd player, that it was too high.. Both of us were so paisehed man!! He had to take e mic n apologise to everyone.. Haha.. Could feel that God was laughing at that stunt he did.. Haha.. But after that, everything was tuned back to e original key, n was smooth-flowing le.. 'Cept for a part when he suddenly signalled mi to push my voice.. I blurred a moment n forgot a few words.. Haah.. N oso another verse i mixed up with another verse, but still in e end managed to piece e whole song perfectly together.. Haha.. So hilarious.. Den when i watched e vid Eri took of mi, i felt so gay man.. Was totally swaying alot.. Haha.. Sian..

Halfway diffused de only gonna say when its fully diffused.. Think gotta wait till countdown den can.. Hmm.. But still its all for God!!

N one last thing.. got back results for last sem lo!! But before i announce it, gotta tell u that i was fully prepared for e exams.. (Not as in studied everything until can memorise, but i prepped everything spiritually!!) Fasted approx. 1 month for it before exams, n oso for alot of other things.. Fasted for 18 days 1 meal a day, n 4 days of 2 meals a day.. Man, e 2 meals fast was like so bad man.. Hard to go thru.. Other than this, n e usual prayers, i oso did study la.. But didnt think that it was alot tho.. Haha.. Think i blogged bout it ba.. if interested, go check my prev posts.. Lol.. Den after all e exams, i kept having this notion that my grades would be kinda like 3.8 or something.. I will be like praying to God for my points to be bout 4, n then suddenly this number will like appear in my mind.. Haha.. n guess wats my results?? *Drumrolls* I got a whooping 3.88!! Praise God? Oh yea!!!!

Oh, N another last thing.. had a games gatherin at my house today.. Was actually kinda scared like how would it turn out, cos it was kinda last min thing.. Alot of last min people couldn't turn up, n at first i was like scared that there'll be not enuf people to play.. But still, everything turned out sweet! N everyone had fun, n Jacob too!! Haha.. Xuan's sooo good wid him.. Think she's e first friend of mine who'm he's so open to.. Haha.. Welcome u guys over to my house again anytime!!

2008

2008-12-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

2008.. A year that opened a new chapter in my life.. A year of many seasons.. First I was in army, n den I left.. Next in OCBC, den left again.. Now in uni.. N am still in it.. Haha.. Wish i can say that i've left it.. Wahaha.. But still, a man's gotta do wat a man's gotta do!!

So many things happened this year, too much that it doesn't feel that i've juz breezed through it.. Today's sermon was bout resolutions n following up on it i think.. Didnt go for sermon, but agar-agar think its like dat la.. Hmm.. This year is e year which i officially started performing in front of an audience, learnt so much more bout what's in store for mi..

Saying goodbye to 2008 wont be that hard for mi, cos i noe that i can bring over everything i achieved into 2009! (Come to think of it.. What can i not bring over??)

Resolution for 2009:
Perform more..
Serve God's kingdom more..
Prepare myself to be a good bro\son\future husband\friend..
Find out God's planned partner for mi..
Love God more..

2008-12-22T07:03:00.000-08:00

I need a dumping ground...

My day today

2008-12-22T06:25:00.000-08:00

Hello! Just back from a hotel stay at Grand Coptorne wid my family.. Sorry for e long period of not blogging.. Haha.. was linda lazy... But anyway, was around Orchard Road n also free, so we didnt mind it at all.. Haha.. Anyway, had to sleep on e cold hard floor with only a blanket n lousy pillow.. Room was standard size, but cos my whole family of 4 squeezed into it ma.. Haha.. So didnt get much of a rest then.. Went to another hotel, M Hotel, for lunch after checking out.. Haha.. Mei commented that we were like people from e "shang liu she hui" today.. So shuang man.. Lunch was an international buffet, but mei n jie like kinda sianned out by it.. Said that we've been having too many buffets within a short period of time.. Haha.. But still, i secretly wished that i could have eaten more sashimi or something.. Hmm.. Guess i was too tired le.. Haha..

Somehow, on e way around Orchard, I had a revelation.. I was actually doin something that God didnt like unknowingly.. E devil was attacking mi in a way that was making my mind accelerate.. Totally didnt hand up e day to God.. Man.. That was sad.. But still.. Am thankful for that revelation, cos i realised how easy it was to do things that God didnt want us to do..

N also was wondering bout one more thing.. How do our leaders actually "judge" our spiritual walk in God?? Cos that time james was like talking bout this.. So kinda curious.. Haha..

Let my faith in God draw mi closer to the person He's reserved for mi.

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