Well, was juz blog-surfing when i realised something.. Do I live to work? Or work to live? Somehow, I feel as if i'm losing touch wid some of my friends.. Losing my grip on how God wants me to live my life.. I feel as if i'm losing my freedom to do things..

Everyday on my way to school, I'll always be reading my notes for e day's lec..
Everyday on my way BACK from school, i'll be reading on e notes which i cannot understand..
Everyday at home, I'll be planning on what I should be doing that night..
Everyday at home, I'll be planning on what I should be completing that week..
Everyday, its either tutorial, lecture, or webby..
Everyday, its e same old walls..
Everyday, its e same super-defensive attitude i get from u..
Is this really the life i wan? Is this a training package from God? Is this what i've to go through for 4 years? "If u need help, seek help?" Yes, I do..

I need help.. External intervention of sorts.. Close friends.. Godly people..
I need help to control my anger towards you.. I need His help to juz make sure that whatever u say has gone through your mind.. I need His help for telling you your mistakes.. Time N time again we all have tried telling u bout ur attitude, time N time u repeat e same mistakes.. I've given up even talking to u at times.. Seems like when u're happy, u joke.. When i dun react to ur jokes, u sting mi like a bee.. I pray to God He heals you.. I pray to God He helps you..

I need help to manage my time.. I need someone to literally push me to do my work.. Its hard studying again.. I'm afraid that i'll never catch up wid all my frens.I'm afraid i'll never do well in uni.. I need a study partner.. Someone who'll be my pacer in this race.. Somone who'll clear my doubts.. Someone who'll lead me thru my walk wid Christ.. I've given up all hopes of CCAs.. Not enough time for it being a main reason.. I need..
If u readers feel that u're up to this challenge.. I warmly welcome ur help..

Was actually thinking of bloggin bout something else this aftnoon, but kinda still working on it.. Keep in touch..

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