And I've got to say this..

No matter who you are with, what you are doing today, whether the roads be clear, whether the ice be smooth, you must know that there's somebody under the same blue sky thinking of you.

Smile Princess:)

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I AM TIRED. Full stop.

I am discouraged. If only the right people could read all these.

I have lost 2 sources of encouragement and motivation. 1 is a friend close to me, whom I still care for even till this day. The other is a sister, whom just like a coal brought out of the fireplace, grew cold and faded away. I have failed.

I am uncertain if a responsibility will be taken away from me, as it may seem as if I was negligent. I do want to do it, but I cannot, due to circumstances that compound me. I pray that God does not take it away from me.

I am alone in this empty house of my heart, with doors that lead to a family which has a major, yet invisible wall. And yet I am unable to do anything about this wall as it can only be destroyed by its creator, which isn't me.

I am unable to go to the place where I find comfort and encouragement for 3 weeks. Painfully creeping pass this 2nd week is bad enough. Missing out sure sucks big time.

I am discouraged, but I still have faith.

God, take it away.

I am deserted but there's one who never deserts who's always with me. He sends a message telling me to be faithful in the things that I do, and wait patiently. Time is of the essence, and definitely it is worth the wait. Trainings are always like that where the last leg of the season comes with a hard push, and a hard yank. Through it all, then am I able to thank God for this wait. Let me let you know that I WILL wait for you to come back. I am faithfully waiting.

The lives of many are in my hands to improve and make better. With love, I will continue what I have started, for it is also through these little things that their faith is built up, and also that God teaches them. I thank God for Sam and Rainer, children of God who sent timely smses to perk me up. I cannot fail in this. I shall not. My determination to walk with the Spirit will definitely overpower my tired body. I will not care about the circumstances that bind me anymore, for it is actually me who willingly bind myself with these ropes. I will not fail. Never.

It is time. Time I learnt how to handle this. If I cannot handle this, how can I in future hold up a family of my own, especially when it will be even harder to handle, with more people involved? To be the fatherly, the brotherly, and also the filial son. I've got to step out of this rubbish heap. Problems can come my way, but I will not force my way through it. Its only dummies who blindly bash their way through solid walls. God will help me figure out a way around this. I can multitask.

I am going to STOP MOPING AROUND. Learn to accept what's already done. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

Life's moving on, SO CAN I. Now, GET UP.

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