Something seems to be missing.. Something.. Not sure wat it is, but still, it aint a good feeling.. Trying to finish one thing after another.. It feels like a race, when there's too many things that'll compete for my time.. Are these things cluttering up my time with God?? Unknowingly, i feel like i'm gradually losing control.. Its always good to know that God is doing the steering, but as i read more, i realise that i'm actually not listening as clearly as i used to during e exam period..

What i think i'm actually hearing now.. Feels like He's telling me to let go.. Think i'm actually attempting to take back control of my life.. Attempting to plan my things according to MY time.. Secretly, i'm wishing that the job that my aunt wanted for mi wouldnt go thru.. I need more time for myself n for e people i love.. I want to spend that quality time as much as i can now, n not when everyone start working.. I fear that the time comes too soon, when i wont have the luxury to do this anymore..

Lord, I let go of everything I have, and I ask that you forgive me for attempting to take back the reigns of my life. You plan for one to succeed, You plan for one to fail. For all things happen to remind us of what You have in store for us. Lord, I take failure with humbleness and success with gratitude, as You tell me that the greatest challenge one will have is when one hears You say No.
Father, may everything work in Your plan, happen in Your time, be of Your grace and mercy on us. Let us stay strong and faithful as we hear Your word. "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness." I seek Your rebuking of my wrongdoings, Your correcting of my mistakes, Your training to be the man you want me to be, and Your teaching that make me reach yet another level higher closer to Your character. I know I've got to cast aside everything I have and cling on to the cross. I seek You Lord. In the name of the lamb who's blood was shed for us, Jesus, Amen.


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